Realizations

Hello there! :) Recently, I've come into some realizations about life, myself, the world, etc. I've spent a lot of time working on some stories, and also, thinking. I've pretty much discovered a plan in life as well. That's always nice!

Just last week, I finished The Catcher in The Rye. I'd like to discuss that.

Normally, it's a book read in an American literature course which I will take this upcoming school year. However, apparently my school (as have many others, I've heard) has banned the book. I took that as an incintive to read it myself.

I love Holden Caulfield. He's probably my favorite fictional American character at the moment. His view on the world is so true, so depressing, and yet, so very much like my own. I adore the symbolistic writing use of J.D. Salinger. His writing has led me to the realization of just how important, albeit a bit antagonizing, written symbols are. I'll keep that in mind as I begin The Great Gatsby in a little while.

Writers are the most underestimated people in this world. Anything to do with the media, was written by a writer. I think it's quite horrible how writers aren't given as much credit as they should.

While I'm on the topic of writing, I've come to another realization (What can I say? Realizations are finding me). People call other people a wide variety of names everyday. People call other people "weird" all the time. But when you stop to think about it, the society we all live in is quite weird.

Then again, the concept of normal is just an average. Normal does indeed exist, but it's just an average. 

It's been a while since I have written one of these and I've been thinking a lot about a few things. One of my favorite celebrities at the moment is Darren Criss, and I've taken some of his ideas and put a few spins on them.

There are plenty of close minded people in the world, but there are also many, many, open minded people. There are in fact more open minded people in the world than there has ever been. It's now acceptable for people to do things in today's society than would have ever been possible in any society. Yes, there is still a plethora of idiocy that plagues the world, but more and more knowledge is being circulated every day.

One hundred years ago to this day, in 1912, the idea of any sort of cellular device, namely an iPhone or Android, would seem incomprehensible. To turn that around, 1912 was the year the Titanic sunk. People before 1912 thought that a great ship such as the Titanic would never sink. The world has come a long way since 1912, indeed.

Humanity faces many problems now--our supply of fossil fuels is disappearing, diseases that are complex and produce horrifying results are being found, and the world is becoming more and more populated day by day. We have so many great things, though. We have beautiful works of creativity, we have amazing results of intelligence, and we have incredible ideas as to how to solve our problems.

The world has lost many geniuses; Albert Einstein, William Shakespeare, and Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart are no longer with us. There are plenty more geniuses that we no longer have as well, such as Vincent Van Gogh, Edgar Allen Poe, and Carl Sagan. There are however, plenty of people now who could be considered geniuses. There's Stephen Hawking, Steve Wozniak, Stephen Fry, and Steven Moffat. There's also many people I personally consider geniuses such as JK Rowling, Johnny Depp, and I'd even consider Darren Criss to be a genius too.

The one thing all geniuses seem to have in common is the urge to find, create, or produce something. That something could be a piece of music, a story, a mathematical theory, or even a philosophical theory. There are even a few different dictionary definitions for the word genius.

1) unusual mental ability, 2) a natural talent, 3) exceptional creative ability, 4) someone who is dazzlingly skilled in any field, 5) someone who has exceptional intellectual ability and originality

I believe every person I named above fell into at least one of those definitions. In the end though, genius is just a label.

That brings me to a good point. Labels. Any time someone calls you anything you dislike, or like, for that matter, it's only a label. Treat it as an actual adhesive label; you can simply peel it off if you want.

Today in my English class, I had a quite depressing thought. There have been billions of people who have died over the years. Most of them won't ever be remembered, many of them didn't even reach their dreams. A good number of them probably had miserable lives. This is why it is so amazing for us to live in the society we do today. We don't all have equal opportunities to be famous or remembered once we perish, but it's a good deal more equal than it used to be. So please, do what you like to do, you never know when it could pay off that you were one of the few people who liked something.

Christmas

Christmas break started on Thursday for me, and yesterday I spent the day with my nieces and nephews. I always love spending time with them because it gives me hope in humanity. Today though, I started thinking about something.

My mother and I went to the store this morning to pick up a few things. The salvation army people were there, and there were posters about donating money to make Christmas great for people who need help. That made me think about Christmas.

Everyone loves Christmas as a young child, the joy about thinking about Santa and all the presents you will receive. The thing is though, even at that age, people are teaching children the wrong thing. Whenever I found out the Santa and the Easter Bunny were just mythical creatures, it caused me to question God, which still to this day, none of my questions have been answered. I have a younger cousin who is going through the same thing ever since she found out about Santa last year. Is Santa really the best way to teach children about giving?

Since Christmas is supposed to be about when baby Jesus was born, why was Santa Clause even made up at all? Shouldn't it be that maybe Jesus brings the presents? Why do we get presents on the day that baby Jesus was born? Shouldn't we do something that celebrates his image instead of indulging ourself on things that we probably won't even use after a month?

Christmas is being used as an excuse to get rid of selfishness. You are allowed to make a list of everything you want and not feel guilty about it. Then, we you do happen to feel guilty, you can donate to a cause that only campaigns around CHRISTMAS.

Maybe I'm wrong, but I think that there are people who are starving the entire year, not just at Christmas. I also think that there are homeless people, and people who are suffering the ENTIRE YEAR. Poverty happen 365 days a year, not just at Christmas time.

Also, for all American Christians who think that it's against Jesus to say "Happy Holidays," we live in the United States. This means that we have the freedom to ALL religions. That's what the United States is supposed to be about.

Jesus would not have said, "Merry Christmas," anyway. Jesus was Jewish, for that mean person who told me that Jesus was English, not Jewish, the other day at school. If a person is Christian, then they should be trying to follow Jesus. Let me assure you that Jesus would have indeed, said "Happy Holidays."

If you want to be a good person, don't just be a nice person at Christmas time. Be a nice person all the time.

People can be so mean. I just don't understand it at all. What's the point of making someone feel inferior just so you can feel superior? And if you are going to be mean to someone, at least have a legitemate reason to. A while ago these two people who are quite popular, are Christians, and everyone pretty much likes, did something to one of my friends.

Most of my friends are the ones who are different than everyone else. No matter how "weird" someone is, they still need a friend. The two people wrote him a letter from a "secret admirer." To this day, they still make fun of him and laugh about it.

I saw these other people making fun of the way someone walked. The person couldn't see them, but it's not the point. You have no idea what is going on in someone's life. Maybe they have a physical disability.

The thing is, no matter how many anti-bullying laws that are passed, nothing is going to make a difference. People are still going to do things just to be mean. It makes me lose hope in humanity.

If Michele Bachmann gets elected president, I am disowning the United States. I will find a way to move to Canada I don't think I could deal with this country any longer.

I was watching this video of her where she was answering questions from people. This one high school girl asked her was would she do for the LGBT community. Bachmann said that she would not do anything because all Americans should have the same rights. She said that by passing special laws for the LGBT community, she would be giving them special rights.

I can think of a lot of things in the US that do not distribute equal rights. For one, the fact that it is easier to go to college for an atheletic activity than it is for someone who is quite smart with a high IQ. That's not fair. There also aren't equal rights for religion, even though the first admendment says so.

If a Muslim woman and a Christian woman walked into a store where I live, the Christian woman would be treated like royality in comparison to the Muslim woman. As far as fame goes in the US, it doesn't fare equally either. Someone who can't sing but is very attractive, will become more famous than a rather average person who sings extremely well.

Also, Michele Bachmann said that she would make it so that Christians could pray in school. She said that Muslims were permitted to pray at school, but not Christians. THERE ARE OTHER RELIGIONS BESIDE CHRISTIANITY AND ISLAM, thank you very much. And I also know that if a Muslim starting praying at the school I go to, they would be yelled at and cursed out.

As soon as someone makes it okay for religion and school to be interwoven, the US is going to decrease in a drastic matter.

Bachmann also stated that she wanted to do away with the federal education district. She said that school should be able to make their own rules, it should not be someone sitting in a desk far away who gets to do that.

Yes, voting is good, but that would affect me because where I live is primarily Christian and Republican. Most republicans are not for public education. A lot of Christians around here are not for science. There you go. The rest of my public education will be ruined.

Barack Obama for President!

I finished NaNoWriMo! I wrote 50,163 words in the month of November! I think that is the most I have ever written in my entire life. I am so glad that it is finally December. I love December! It is my favorite month besides January. Some things that decrease my faith in humanity that have happened over the month:

1) Someone called me stupid. I said, "I would challenge you to a battle of wits, but I see you have come unarmed." Then they called me weird. "It's Shakespeare," said I. Then they asked me who that was.

2) I was in gym this morning and we were talking about words and there were these words that were homophones. I said, "Hey! Those are homophones!" Then someone else goes, "Why are you afraid of gay people?"

3) People sound so stupid when they try to talk in a fake accent. I mean, English people do not go around saying "Ello govna!" That would be like saying that because I am Southern, I go around saying, "Hey y'all, want some fried chicken?"

4) Your blood is not blue! It is red. You have red blood cells, not blue ones. Your veins only appear blue because of a delusional appearance.

5) Britain and England are not the same thing. Britain is an island that includes Wales, Scotland, and England.

6) There is no such thing as a "sensory organ" in our brains that makes us yawn. We yawn because of it being an involuntary action that dates back to the early evolutional times.

7) Thanksgiving is NOT a Christian holiday. It is an American holiday, and we have freedom of religion here in this country, even though it seems as though that is not true. You are allowed to be Christian, Muslim, Jewish, Shinto, or athiest if you choose.

8) Buddhism is not a religion. It is a way of life.

9) People who have addictions are not necessarily freaks. They might not have that addiction by choice.

10) A nerd is not someone who is just friends with teachers. Nerds are typically friends of teachers, but that is not a requirement. Nerd have to be, you know, like smart and stuff. Well, and they kind of need to be excited about things.

11) Not all athiests hate Christians, in the same way that not all Christians hate people who aren't Christians. Stereotypes aren't cool.

I got my best time in PE today for the mile run! I got 9:42. I also did a push up! I've never been able to do a push up before!

Happy All Hallow's Eve! Today doesn't feel like Halloween to me at all, but then again, what does Halloween feel like? It is quite dreary outside today, though. It's raining and it's about forty-five degrees outside.

We watched this movie called 'Something Wicked This Way Comes' in my English class and got into a discussion about Halloween. Somebody beside me said that Halloween is just an excuse to dress up like idiots and eat candy. I'm not dressing up like an idiot and neither are any of my friends. I'm being Carl Sagan, my other friend is being Albert Einstein, and my other friend is going to be Amy Pond from Doctor Who.

By the way, did you know 'Something Wicked This Way Comes' is from Macbeth? I love Shakespeare! He's so cool.

Speaking of the weather, we're playing rugby in my PE class. I really don't like rugby. It's just not fun for me. I'd rather run a mile or play soccer. Anyway, she made us go outside on the football field so that we could practice or dropkicks. A dropkick is when you throw the ball on the ground, wait for it to bounce up, and then kick it through the goal posts. They are used for scrums and something else. Anyway, it was forty-three degrees and we were outside in shorts. I like the cold, but my hands were turning red.

For PE, we have projects. One of them was to make a CD full of music we work out to. My CD is full of songs about Doctor Who and quarks. I even have songs about anglerfish and monkeys.

Tomorrow is Nanowrimo! This will be my third year doing it and I really want to finish. I've kind of planned out my story a little. It's about a society that has lied about everything. I predict it will be fun.

All I see today are people in winter boots and campflauge. It's about fifty/sixty degrees outside. Yesterday, when it was even warmer outside, people were wearing heavy winter jackets. My dad said it was because of the weather change, but I wore a short sleeve shirt yesterday and I was completely fine. I guess I'm just strange, well I know I'm strange. I'm told that I am repeatedly. But, yeah, it's fine. Anyway:

1) I can sing the periodic table of elements. It's a song by Tom Lehrer. I memorized it this past summer when I decided I should do something useful with my time. Yesterday, I was at the hospital, visiting a family, and my Grandmother made me sing it to the nurses. They were surprised.

2) I have never watched any Disney movie. I didn't watch them as a child, and I have them all now, I just wouldn't prefer to watch them now. They slightly bore me. I mean it's fine if someone else likes them, I just don't understand why people still talk about princesses and talking mermaids. The Lion King might be acceptable if people actually read Hamlet first.

3) In PE today, we had a free day. Sometimes I bring my iPod, like I did today. One of my friends (the pagan/athiest/agnostic one) and I listened to Beatles songs all class long. We sang 'All You Need is Love' out loud. I was shocked at all the unkind looks we were being given. Is it so bad to sing a song about love and compassion? Somebody told us to shut up with some very unkind words because the Beatles were all drunk and high and they wrote their songs while they were high. The only song I know of the Beatles that might be like that is 'Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds,' and that is just a theory.

My friend that sings the Beatles songs with me is having a Halloween party and she invited me and two of my other friends. One of them is going to be Jaques Cousteau, another Albert Einstein, and I am going to be Marie Curie. This is going to be such an awe filled day!

Seriously? Are football and other humans the only thing people can talk about? I mean, I understand the football part, but talking about other people? It's ridiculous. My conversations usually tend to be about religion, philosophy, books, music, people like Carl Sagan, and many more. I never usually talk about people or use that as my main conversation trigger.

Today, I was asking people their opinion about their religion. People really seemed to enjoy my questions. You know, because they all like to tell you how their point of view is correct. They all like the thought of being the one who helps you find the path to Jesus. When they ask if I'm Christian, it's just better to say yes, rather than to explain my point of view about the matter or religion. That usually seems to start an argument. Even the Dalai Lama said that if someone finds comfort in their religion, you shouldn't try to change that.

The main question was about determining how a person goes to Heaven or Hell. Someone said that they didn't believe in Hell; God was too nice and too forgiving to ever send someone to Hell, even if they did the "unforgivable sin." Most of the other answers seemed to revolve around repenting your sins and following Jesus. One person said, "You can't be a bad person. You have to be a good person." Well, how broad. One baptist gave me a long list of things: go to church, ask for forgiveness, be nice to others, never sin, always say blessings, and pray often. I was going to ask my Jewish teacher her opinion of the matter but I didn't have time. These opinions above are protestant views.

My next opinions consist of: two athiests (one that believes in a higher power, just not a God), a Shintoist and a Catholic. The Catholic said that he didn't know about the above question (what determines whether you go to Heaven or Hell), but that he thought God was light, just light. Another friend of mine said that his answer made complete sense. It does, if you think about it. One of the athiests said that they didn't know, which technichally classifies them as agnostic but I didn't say anything. The other athiest said that while they believe in a higher power, they don't think that there is such a thing as Heaven or Hell. The Shintoist doesn't believe in a God (god), nor does she believe in Heaven or Hell.

A last friend of mine called themself a religion I can't remember what it's called, nor can I find it on the internet. He said something very interesting though. "I feel like all humans are perfect and are only looking at one field of view. Then, there are the few like you and I, the ones who see the truth, the ones who look out to the side." I thought that was an amazing response.

Meanwhile, I'd like to comment on the stupidest response I recieved today. It was from a Southern Baptist, and I recieved quite a lot of stupid responses from Christians. Most of these just blatantly annoyed me. "You can't think about it, because then God won't be true anymore. That's a sin! We shouldn't have no science either. It just proves God wrong and he doesn't like it!" Yes, the person actually said the double negative. She actually said it out loud and all. Like, with her voice very loudly, so everyone could hear her. My stress level tends to get quite high around Southerners who can't talk with correct grammar.

Let's return to the stupid response I recieved. So, if I'm a Christian, I'm not supposed to think about things? We're not supposed to study science either? What? I'm sorry, but I don't think that's what God (god, gods) wants. Why would he have given us brains if we weren't supposed to think about it. Now, not believing in science, that's even more ridiculous! No, we can't just get rid of it! If we do, I'm seriously abandoning the Earth. I will find a way to figure out where all the aliens are and beg them to let me and some of my philosophical friends live on their planet.

I'm not an athiest, I'm not Christian, nor am I any other Abrahamic religion. I would consider myself to be Buddhist, but I don't know if I qualify for that. I do think that Buddhists are the most correct in their theory of karma and reincarnation. Anyway, I once heard this British guy talking about the 10-pound note featuring Charles Darwin's face. The American dollar has "In God We Trust" on the back. He said that the UK trusts in a guy that actually existed, whereas the US just believes in God. I'm not saying it's not good to believe in your religion or your deity, but it's also not good to just trust in faith alone. My Shintoist friend, when I told her this, said, "Even if you believe solely in God, you still look both ways before you cross an extremely bust street."

I don't understand why people always talk about religion being boring and how people drone on about it all the time. I've been asking people their opinions about their personal religion all day and I have honestly had a great day! I find it quite interesting to listen to opinions other than my own. How else would our minds grow?

Also, I have one last point. In my science class, we were talking about Democritis, the guy who 2500 years ago, first theorized about the atom. My teacher said that it made her think that he must have not had a real job, and just sat around thinking. I do like my science teacher, but that thought just completely makes me shake my head. Thinking, if nothing else, is most certainly a "real job." Everything we do, everything we think, everything we write or read, was thought up by someone or something. I'm writing this, and the English language was made up by someone, as was the computer I'm on, and this website. It was all thought up first.

This picture, or rather quote, although I'm not an athiest (just an unknown religion) sums up everything for me:

Today, my friends and I had a normal discussion about the purpose in life and dying. I'm an existentialist, I've decided. I want to study theology and write things.

Life is as unfair as it can be. I've been told this for as long as I can remember. It's not fair that many people just get to be who they are and are well known for it. It's not fair that many people get to have a special talent and others don't. It's not fair that people are born rich and never have to work to get to a good point in life.

For many people, the purpose in life is to become famous or rich, preferably both. I too, had wanted to be rich and acquire fame. I don't want to anymore.

If you don't go into religion, one of the oldest people in the history of Earth that still has fame is Socrates. I don't even know that many famous people from before the sixteenth century. In 700 years, granted the Earth is still around, nobody will remember all these celebrities. They probably won't even remember Bill Gates. I doubt Carl Sagan, JK Rowling, or Marie Curie will even be remembered. People will even begin to forget William Shakespeare and Albert Einstein.

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes... the ones who see things differently -- they're not fond of rules... You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things... they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do." Steve Jobs

I feel like crying. About an hour ago, I learned that Steve Jobs died. He certainly changed the world in many ways, and I can only hope he will be remembered forever.

Rest in peace, Steve Jobs. You were an amazing asset to this world.

Holy mother of Shakespeare's fluffy grandfather. Can't we just all exist peacefully? Please? I walked into my class today to hear nearly the entire class cussing each other out. I personally think it's rude to do that in front of anyone. If you have to cuss someone out, at least do it at a place I won't be.

I've had people who remark to me saying that I'm afraid to cuss. No, I'm not. I have respect for myself and people around me.

The other day, I said that if I were to ever take over the world, I would get rid of nuclear power and guns. There are other sources of getting energy. I learned it in my geography class this year.

Someone said that we needed guns to get food. Ha. I don't get my food from guns. Even when we buy our food from the grocery store they didn't kill the animals with guns. In fact, I'd rather be a vegetarian (I was for six months) than kill my food with a gun.

I understand in some places guns might be needed to get food, but I live in an urbanized area. If I ruled the world, we would not need guns for food. I would take care of that.

As for nuclear power, why can't we use solar? I understand that some places don't exactly get a lot of sun, but they could use wind power. Doesn't anyone remember Chernobyl? Japan six months ago? I guess not.

This week at the school I attend, it's spirit week. Today is Nerd Day. I'm offended. They called it "Steve Urkel Day, AKA Nerd Day." Is that the best nerd they could come up with? He's a fictional character! What about Carl Sagan? He wouldn't have minded, I'm sure. Being called a nerd is a compliment, not an insult.

Nobody knows who Carl Sagan is. I've known about him since I was about six. They make fun of Stephen Hawking, they say Einstein said things he never said, and they don't know who Carl Sagan is. Those are three of the most intelligent people to ever be born on this Earth!

Yesterday, in my PE class, someone said something about the capital of France (Paris). This boy replies "But France is a city!" Can I just crawl away from humanity and live by myself with my cats? I'm so sad about humanity, I'm going to go read a book now.

Today, in my physical education class, we had to run a mile. Afterward, I had nothing productive to do. One of my friends and I spent the rest of the class picking up trash off of the ground, all the while thinking about how lazy people are. On the grass in front of the concession stand, there were gum wrappers and cans. There were two trash cans near the stand. Couldn't they have just walking about ten feet and throw their own trash away?

Next we moved to the bleachers and started to clean that up. That was even worse. There was a football game last night and people left their half full drink cans all over the top of the bleachers. They'd left half eaten candy all over the bleachers and there were flies and all kind of bugs all over it. Last night they sold boiled peanuts and nobody threw them away. They left them all over the bleachers. There was no where to sit because of that.

Then my friends and I sang the Canadian anthem (O Canada) and we felt better. I also made up a song about juice because juice makes nearly everything better. I can't tell people how much I wish I was from Canada. That's a really cool country, the coolest on the North American continent. I love Canada.

Last night I aquired a new journal/notebook and I'm getting all of my close friends and family to write in it. Once I get everyone I want to write in it, I'll include some of my favorite quotes as well. Nearly every person has written in it about my world (Kandosa, Kandocia, K/Candosa, not sure about the spelling just yet) and how much they love it.

After lunch today, I've had a Doctor Who quote stuck in my head. "Please save me from the monsters, please save me from the monsters." That's from the episode titled 'Night Terrors.' There's this little boy who says it over and over again. Sometimes I wish that life were as simple as distinguishing the monsters and learning how to get rid of them, instead of all the things that I find complicated.

Most people don't actually find life complicated. They find it easy. For example, I never learned to tie my shoes the normal way. When I was in kindergarten, I could never tie my shoes the way that other children did, so I made up my own way. The other day, while I was watching someone tie their shoes, I learned how to do it. It was so incredibly easy. I still like my way better, however.

One of my closest friends told me this quote: "Closed minds should come with closed mouths." Oh how I wish people abided by that. Today in my PE class which I have first period, I was discussing religion with one of the few philosophical people I know. I don't consider myself to be religious. I do believe that there is a higher power, but until someone can prove that their religion is correct and the only one, I'm not saying I'm one religion or not.

With my philosophical buddies, one of which is a strict Christian, the other is a Pagan, and another is like me, we were debating all religions. We got on the topic of getting to Heaven. My father once took me to visit a synagogue and meet the rabbi. I think it's completely strange to think that only Christians are going to Heaven. One peer remarked that if I wasn't a Christian I couldn't go to Heaven because the only way to get there was Jesus. Another peer said that I was stupid to believe what I believe. "There is scientific evidence that Jesus was real! Read the bible!"

One, I never said that I didn't believe that Jesus did or did not exist. I never stated my views on him. I never stated I was or was not any certain religion. Two, there is no scientific evidence that Jesus existed. It's a belief. Third, I did read the bible. I read it last summer, from cover to cover. The bible doesn't prove anything because in order for it to be real, you have to believe it. My philosophical friend even thinks that one day our 'God' might just be mythology. 2000 years ago the Greeks and Romans believed their gods were real.

You are raised by your parents or guardians, and therefore, you will most likely believe in the same religion they do. As you get older, you do have the right to choose your own beliefs, but most people don't. Most children are raised to not accept any opinions, but their own. That, is why the human race is getting worse, not better.

Gosh. I love discussing religion. I wish I could do it professionally.

Humanity has nothing to be proud of. We have ruined our planet, we kill people for no reason, and we exclude many people. There are people starving right now, people that fight for their lives (I don't mean soldiers) everyday, and people who continually are left out for no reason.

It's something we all should be ashamed about. All 6.96 billion of us humans are alike in the fact that we were born on this planet. We shouldn't make anyone feel worthless just because of the way they choose to express their self.

Yesterday, in my English class, we got into small groups and discussed characters we had created. Neither one of my characters were perfect, nor were their lives. It was a fantasy/science fiction story and everyone in my group thought it was weird. I changed my story because of it, and I'm left with realistic fiction. Let it be known that everyone in my group likes Harry Potter. There's just a point I'd like to make.

Thirteen years ago, if J.K. Rowling would have told people that she was writing a story about a young wizard who'd lost his parents and finds out about the hidden wizard world, they would have thought she was crazy. Now she's the first author to become a billionaire because of her writing.

There are plenty of other potential authors out in the world who could be just like JK Rowling. There are plenty of authors out in the world, who are bestsellers and have great novels, that my generation has never heard of. I'm quite aggravated at being called weird. Who are these people who are allowed to judge me on whether I'm weird are not? Do they work for God?

I honestly can't understand why anyone would want to be 'normal' in this world made up of mostly self-centered humans. I'm glad I'm not a normal human who doesn't think twice about ruining the environment they live in. Someone once told me I was going to go to Hell because I believed that there is life out in the universe. Obviously, people can believe what they want, but they shouldn't tell me what to believe. That's why it's called a belief.

I asked a few of my friends if they knew who Carl Sagan was. Two people out of about eleven did. Most of which, were people in my honors classes with me. I think this picture says a lot. One of my friends just asked me, "Is that the dude that is on that alien show?" No, just no. Carl Sagan was a GENIUS. My stress level about this subject is so high, I had to put at least one word in all capitals.

Whenever I first received my glasses, I looked at the world around me in awe. I'd been looking at the world through a tinted view; throughout my entire life, I had never seen the moon correctly. Thinking everyone just saw it the same way I did--blurry and disorderly looking--I dismissed it as just being something in the sky.

The night I was outside, gazing around, wondering how I could have missed the pure beauty of the things around me, I happened to look up at the moon. It was not blurry; It was actually clear! That was when I was at the mere age of eleven. One night about a year ago, I was outside again. This time I was now used to the crystal clear vision I had with the aid of my glasses. For some unknown reason, my glasses slipped down my face a little. Looking up at the moon, I could see about half of it clearly, while the other half was very blurry, much like how I used to perceive how the moon looked. I was reminded once again how it felt to realize what the world really looked like.

I contemplated about the world that night. What if we were all looking through a tinted view? I had no earthly idea how the world looked before I put on my glasses. If we were really looking through a tinted view, how would we be able to tell?

Another time, I was riding in the car on the way back from my Grandma's. Loads of cars were passing by us and as I glanced at one of them, I was reminded of the fact that over six billion lives were just like me; we're all humans of this planet. We are have our own lives, things we do, family members, obligations, but we all share the Earth. Then there are all the people who have been on the planet but are deceased. They're just like us.

I'm positive there is something we are all missing, all 6.96 billion of us. There is something that is obvious, but none of us can see it because we're not looking through our glasses. The universe is infinite, numbers are infinite, discoveries are infinite, and I believe whatever we can't see is infinite, or either growing at a rapid rate.

In my geometry class, my teacher was talking about sudoku. Technically, the word is pronounced soo-doh-koo because in Japanese the vowel 'u' is pronounced like the double 'o' in loot. The vowel 'o' is pronounced like 'oh.' Most people pronouce it soo-doh-koh. One of my friends who sits behind me is studying Japanese and I tried to learn some of the basics of the language this past summer. We corrected the class, and this girl who sits beside me said, "We speak American. We don't live in Japan."

One, we don't speak 'American.' We speak American English. Two, the word should be pronounced the same, even if we're not in Japan. It kind of annoys me whenever I hear most of the US say Vincent van Gogh's last name like 'go'. It's actually not pronounced like that, but they will correct you every time.

My geometry teacher also was talking about how our generation needed to keep America from being stupid and to stop it from getting bombed. Hah, too late. Honestly, America does need more thinkers, but a certain kind of thinkers. He also said that there was no bad president. Mhm, yeah sure.

I sort of think I was born misplaced. I don't belong in the South. I wish I would have been born somewhere like Vermont, or even Canada. I would love to live in Canada! They have nice, cold weather there. I love cold weather. It's nice. I don't think there are mosquitos in Canada, either.

There's another poster in this classroom that says. "The only place where success doesn't follow work is in the dictionary." Again, that is true, but it can also be false. It all depends on what you count as success. I could say that being successful means sleeping all day. I'm certainly sure that most humans wouldn't count sleeping as working. It's all about counter examples. I actually learned that in geometry.

People also keep bringing up that the world is going to end in 2012. Well, a few months ago, I spent a few weeks researching that. The Mayan calendar is divided into sections; all that is happening on the Winter Solstice of 2012 is that we are changing sections. The calender doesn't say that the world is going to end at all. Catostrophic events have been known to happen when they change, however.

Holy Saint Francis, today is Jon Richardson's birthday! Happy Birthday, Jon Richardson. It's a shame that wikipedia doesn't have a picture of him. I first learned about him when he was on this show with David Tennant and Catherine Tate. He is one of my favorite comedians! Tomorrow is World Tourism Day; Happy early World Tourism Day! I actually made this week continent week. Last week was religion week. Today is Asia day. Happy Asia day.

Why can't people read? A ton of my Facebook friends are posting that rumor about how Facebook is going to start charging. It says on Facebook's login screen that it will always be free. That's what wrong with the world. People apparently can't read.

I started reading one of Ursula K Le Guin's books today. It's very interesting and I'll probably spend a lot of time at school tomorrow reading it. I have geometry and it's kind of a little boring to me. At the beginning of the year it was highly interesting; we were talking about different dimensions and Euclid.

I just found a bucket list I made last year. The first thing on it is to learn Romanian. I'd forgotten about that. There was a time in my life when I used to be obsessed with Romania. I think it was when I was in the fifth grade. Learning Romanian would be really fun. I go through all types of stages where I learn about different places. There's been Romania, Australia, Denmark, China, Italy, Peru, Scotland, Japan, India, and probably the most recent, Lesotho. This past summer I memorized all the countries of the globe. Well, at least most of them.

Europe and Asia were pretty easy. Africa was a little difficult; I still haven't managed to memorize South America. That's a shame. That probably should have been the first continent to memorize.

As for life, I have decided that I'm going to spend it doing what makes me happy: writing. I might never write a best selling novel, but that doesn't matter. What matters is that my life is actually fun at some point. My current plan for college is to major in philosophy and writing. Perhaps I'll get a minor in Latin because I love Latin. I took it when I was at the REACH (Reaching Exceptionally Able Children) Gifted and Talented program. I haven't exactly, ruled out medical school, either.

So far there are four careers that I would be satisfied with: writer, neurologist, psychiatrist, and a philosophy professor. My nephew is my inspiration to become a neurologist because he passed away from a disease called Arnold Chiari Malformation. I would like to become a psychiatrist just because it seems interesting and you can help people. I've always wanted to visit a psychiatrist and just talk to them for hours.

If I ever get to a point in life when I have a good amount of money, I plan to spend it starting this school I've already started planning out. Any left over money would go to charities such as Arnold Chiari, Spina Bifada, Alzheimer's and the epilepsy foundation.

I have friends that often joke about what it would be like if I were ruler of the world. We would call the planet Kandosa and speak Kandish. The truth is, though, that I don't think just one person can completely change the world. It will take a lot of people who are all doing the right thing.

In November, many members of the writing community are joining together to participate in a worldwide project. It's called NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month. You can participate if you are thirteen years of age or older. The goal is to write fifty-thousand words in a month. You cannot write any of your story before 12:01 on November 1. I tried it last year, but I couldn't manage to finish. This year, however, I'm prepared.

At my school there aren't any clubs I'm particularly interested in joining. There isn't even a book club. There's a club called the Live Green Club, but it hasn't been started up yet.

A few friends of my friends and I have gotten together and started a writing club. We have yet to find a sponsor, but hopefully it will be started within a month. We have planned out many of the things we plan to do already. We're going to write a collaborative story, a script for a movie, a script for our favorite television show, and write letters to our most inspirational authors. One person even came up to me and asked me about the club on Friday. Perhaps there are even more people who love to write just as much as we do.

Doctor who was incredible last night. On BBCA next week there's going to be a season six marathon leading up to the finale. I have a theory that the Doctor is still on this place called Demon's Run and it has been his ganger since the ganger appeared. The ganger and the Doctor supposedly swapped shoes. Rule one: the Doctor lies.