Happy All Hallow's Eve! Today doesn't feel like Halloween to me at all, but then again, what does Halloween feel like? It is quite dreary outside today, though. It's raining and it's about forty-five degrees outside.

We watched this movie called 'Something Wicked This Way Comes' in my English class and got into a discussion about Halloween. Somebody beside me said that Halloween is just an excuse to dress up like idiots and eat candy. I'm not dressing up like an idiot and neither are any of my friends. I'm being Carl Sagan, my other friend is being Albert Einstein, and my other friend is going to be Amy Pond from Doctor Who.

By the way, did you know 'Something Wicked This Way Comes' is from Macbeth? I love Shakespeare! He's so cool.

Speaking of the weather, we're playing rugby in my PE class. I really don't like rugby. It's just not fun for me. I'd rather run a mile or play soccer. Anyway, she made us go outside on the football field so that we could practice or dropkicks. A dropkick is when you throw the ball on the ground, wait for it to bounce up, and then kick it through the goal posts. They are used for scrums and something else. Anyway, it was forty-three degrees and we were outside in shorts. I like the cold, but my hands were turning red.

For PE, we have projects. One of them was to make a CD full of music we work out to. My CD is full of songs about Doctor Who and quarks. I even have songs about anglerfish and monkeys.

Tomorrow is Nanowrimo! This will be my third year doing it and I really want to finish. I've kind of planned out my story a little. It's about a society that has lied about everything. I predict it will be fun.

All I see today are people in winter boots and campflauge. It's about fifty/sixty degrees outside. Yesterday, when it was even warmer outside, people were wearing heavy winter jackets. My dad said it was because of the weather change, but I wore a short sleeve shirt yesterday and I was completely fine. I guess I'm just strange, well I know I'm strange. I'm told that I am repeatedly. But, yeah, it's fine. Anyway:

1) I can sing the periodic table of elements. It's a song by Tom Lehrer. I memorized it this past summer when I decided I should do something useful with my time. Yesterday, I was at the hospital, visiting a family, and my Grandmother made me sing it to the nurses. They were surprised.

2) I have never watched any Disney movie. I didn't watch them as a child, and I have them all now, I just wouldn't prefer to watch them now. They slightly bore me. I mean it's fine if someone else likes them, I just don't understand why people still talk about princesses and talking mermaids. The Lion King might be acceptable if people actually read Hamlet first.

3) In PE today, we had a free day. Sometimes I bring my iPod, like I did today. One of my friends (the pagan/athiest/agnostic one) and I listened to Beatles songs all class long. We sang 'All You Need is Love' out loud. I was shocked at all the unkind looks we were being given. Is it so bad to sing a song about love and compassion? Somebody told us to shut up with some very unkind words because the Beatles were all drunk and high and they wrote their songs while they were high. The only song I know of the Beatles that might be like that is 'Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds,' and that is just a theory.

My friend that sings the Beatles songs with me is having a Halloween party and she invited me and two of my other friends. One of them is going to be Jaques Cousteau, another Albert Einstein, and I am going to be Marie Curie. This is going to be such an awe filled day!

Seriously? Are football and other humans the only thing people can talk about? I mean, I understand the football part, but talking about other people? It's ridiculous. My conversations usually tend to be about religion, philosophy, books, music, people like Carl Sagan, and many more. I never usually talk about people or use that as my main conversation trigger.

Today, I was asking people their opinion about their religion. People really seemed to enjoy my questions. You know, because they all like to tell you how their point of view is correct. They all like the thought of being the one who helps you find the path to Jesus. When they ask if I'm Christian, it's just better to say yes, rather than to explain my point of view about the matter or religion. That usually seems to start an argument. Even the Dalai Lama said that if someone finds comfort in their religion, you shouldn't try to change that.

The main question was about determining how a person goes to Heaven or Hell. Someone said that they didn't believe in Hell; God was too nice and too forgiving to ever send someone to Hell, even if they did the "unforgivable sin." Most of the other answers seemed to revolve around repenting your sins and following Jesus. One person said, "You can't be a bad person. You have to be a good person." Well, how broad. One baptist gave me a long list of things: go to church, ask for forgiveness, be nice to others, never sin, always say blessings, and pray often. I was going to ask my Jewish teacher her opinion of the matter but I didn't have time. These opinions above are protestant views.

My next opinions consist of: two athiests (one that believes in a higher power, just not a God), a Shintoist and a Catholic. The Catholic said that he didn't know about the above question (what determines whether you go to Heaven or Hell), but that he thought God was light, just light. Another friend of mine said that his answer made complete sense. It does, if you think about it. One of the athiests said that they didn't know, which technichally classifies them as agnostic but I didn't say anything. The other athiest said that while they believe in a higher power, they don't think that there is such a thing as Heaven or Hell. The Shintoist doesn't believe in a God (god), nor does she believe in Heaven or Hell.

A last friend of mine called themself a religion I can't remember what it's called, nor can I find it on the internet. He said something very interesting though. "I feel like all humans are perfect and are only looking at one field of view. Then, there are the few like you and I, the ones who see the truth, the ones who look out to the side." I thought that was an amazing response.

Meanwhile, I'd like to comment on the stupidest response I recieved today. It was from a Southern Baptist, and I recieved quite a lot of stupid responses from Christians. Most of these just blatantly annoyed me. "You can't think about it, because then God won't be true anymore. That's a sin! We shouldn't have no science either. It just proves God wrong and he doesn't like it!" Yes, the person actually said the double negative. She actually said it out loud and all. Like, with her voice very loudly, so everyone could hear her. My stress level tends to get quite high around Southerners who can't talk with correct grammar.

Let's return to the stupid response I recieved. So, if I'm a Christian, I'm not supposed to think about things? We're not supposed to study science either? What? I'm sorry, but I don't think that's what God (god, gods) wants. Why would he have given us brains if we weren't supposed to think about it. Now, not believing in science, that's even more ridiculous! No, we can't just get rid of it! If we do, I'm seriously abandoning the Earth. I will find a way to figure out where all the aliens are and beg them to let me and some of my philosophical friends live on their planet.

I'm not an athiest, I'm not Christian, nor am I any other Abrahamic religion. I would consider myself to be Buddhist, but I don't know if I qualify for that. I do think that Buddhists are the most correct in their theory of karma and reincarnation. Anyway, I once heard this British guy talking about the 10-pound note featuring Charles Darwin's face. The American dollar has "In God We Trust" on the back. He said that the UK trusts in a guy that actually existed, whereas the US just believes in God. I'm not saying it's not good to believe in your religion or your deity, but it's also not good to just trust in faith alone. My Shintoist friend, when I told her this, said, "Even if you believe solely in God, you still look both ways before you cross an extremely bust street."

I don't understand why people always talk about religion being boring and how people drone on about it all the time. I've been asking people their opinions about their personal religion all day and I have honestly had a great day! I find it quite interesting to listen to opinions other than my own. How else would our minds grow?

Also, I have one last point. In my science class, we were talking about Democritis, the guy who 2500 years ago, first theorized about the atom. My teacher said that it made her think that he must have not had a real job, and just sat around thinking. I do like my science teacher, but that thought just completely makes me shake my head. Thinking, if nothing else, is most certainly a "real job." Everything we do, everything we think, everything we write or read, was thought up by someone or something. I'm writing this, and the English language was made up by someone, as was the computer I'm on, and this website. It was all thought up first.

This picture, or rather quote, although I'm not an athiest (just an unknown religion) sums up everything for me:

Today, my friends and I had a normal discussion about the purpose in life and dying. I'm an existentialist, I've decided. I want to study theology and write things.

Life is as unfair as it can be. I've been told this for as long as I can remember. It's not fair that many people just get to be who they are and are well known for it. It's not fair that many people get to have a special talent and others don't. It's not fair that people are born rich and never have to work to get to a good point in life.

For many people, the purpose in life is to become famous or rich, preferably both. I too, had wanted to be rich and acquire fame. I don't want to anymore.

If you don't go into religion, one of the oldest people in the history of Earth that still has fame is Socrates. I don't even know that many famous people from before the sixteenth century. In 700 years, granted the Earth is still around, nobody will remember all these celebrities. They probably won't even remember Bill Gates. I doubt Carl Sagan, JK Rowling, or Marie Curie will even be remembered. People will even begin to forget William Shakespeare and Albert Einstein.

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes... the ones who see things differently -- they're not fond of rules... You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things... they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do." Steve Jobs

I feel like crying. About an hour ago, I learned that Steve Jobs died. He certainly changed the world in many ways, and I can only hope he will be remembered forever.

Rest in peace, Steve Jobs. You were an amazing asset to this world.

Holy mother of Shakespeare's fluffy grandfather. Can't we just all exist peacefully? Please? I walked into my class today to hear nearly the entire class cussing each other out. I personally think it's rude to do that in front of anyone. If you have to cuss someone out, at least do it at a place I won't be.

I've had people who remark to me saying that I'm afraid to cuss. No, I'm not. I have respect for myself and people around me.

The other day, I said that if I were to ever take over the world, I would get rid of nuclear power and guns. There are other sources of getting energy. I learned it in my geography class this year.

Someone said that we needed guns to get food. Ha. I don't get my food from guns. Even when we buy our food from the grocery store they didn't kill the animals with guns. In fact, I'd rather be a vegetarian (I was for six months) than kill my food with a gun.

I understand in some places guns might be needed to get food, but I live in an urbanized area. If I ruled the world, we would not need guns for food. I would take care of that.

As for nuclear power, why can't we use solar? I understand that some places don't exactly get a lot of sun, but they could use wind power. Doesn't anyone remember Chernobyl? Japan six months ago? I guess not.

This week at the school I attend, it's spirit week. Today is Nerd Day. I'm offended. They called it "Steve Urkel Day, AKA Nerd Day." Is that the best nerd they could come up with? He's a fictional character! What about Carl Sagan? He wouldn't have minded, I'm sure. Being called a nerd is a compliment, not an insult.

Nobody knows who Carl Sagan is. I've known about him since I was about six. They make fun of Stephen Hawking, they say Einstein said things he never said, and they don't know who Carl Sagan is. Those are three of the most intelligent people to ever be born on this Earth!

Yesterday, in my PE class, someone said something about the capital of France (Paris). This boy replies "But France is a city!" Can I just crawl away from humanity and live by myself with my cats? I'm so sad about humanity, I'm going to go read a book now.